Hello friends, current and future. My name is Heidi and I am a student of Francisco's. He and I have decided to create a blog together to tell the story of one student's journey with Kaiut Yoga. While this is my story, it could be anybody's story.
I met Francisco 9 months ago in Boulder Colorado. But I had been hearing about him and his yoga for a couple of years through a dear mutual friend Mukara. Mukara kept mentioning Kaiut yoga to me and how much I would love it and that I needed to come to Boulder to try it. Well, I live in Toronto Canada. So Boulder is not exactly convenient. And I had heard so many times from people that 'you need to try this yoga and that yoga, it is different' that I must admit I was a little skeptical. I have been practicing yoga for almost 8 years and while Hatha is different to Ashtanga which is different to Moksha, yoga is yoga. So how different could Kaiut really be?
Well, I was going through a really hard time personally. I was finally actually happy with my life and yet I was miserable. I know, that doesn't make any sense but it is true (funny how the truth often doesn't make sense, don't you think!?).
I had spent the past 10 years of my life keeping things together. I was married to an entrepreneur just starting out so I was bringing home the bacon and doing everything at home. I had two children whose births came with a healthy dose of postpartum depression. I went through a rollercoaster ride at work. I then went through a divorce with a fierce intent of protecting our children from the pain as much as possible. The postpartum continued well well post partum (not surprising given family genetics). My oldest son started dealing with attachment disorder, my youngest with life threatening allergies, and my parents were struggling with their health. I was on autopilot keeping my head above water.
And then I met my current husband, Daniel. Suddenly I had a partner in life. I had someone to share the load. And this opened a crack of personal reflection in me. This crack grew and grew revealing that while I had been so focused on life, I had ignored me. I knew how to create a happy life but I had no idea how to create a happy me. I felt capable, productive, accomplished and empty. And thus I decided to go to Boulder in February, meet Francisco and try Kaiut yoga. It is truly amazing what has happened since.