So last week I was in Curitiba at the Kaiut Intensive Yoga Retreat and this week I am back in Toronto with all that comes with it - at home and at work. To say last week and this week are two very different experiences is an understatement.
Upon leaving Brazil, Francisco suggested I try to hold onto the memories and the sensations of the retreat more so than the actual poses and sequences, and to think about the logic of the work. At first I wasn't sure what he meant by the logic of the work but as this week has unfolded I think I'm getting it.
I came across something today that said 'Serenity is not freedom from the storm but peace within the storm'. My immediate reaction was 'No!! I want a life without storms!!'. That is the child in me speaking. But life does have storms. Some of them tropical and over in a few minutes. And others more persistent and pervasive. And if we believe that happiness comes only with a life without storms then we will never be happy. But if we find an umbrella that shields us from the rain then we can weather the storms without too much damage.
This week back at home has been filled with storms of all kinds, and yet I am not getting all that wet. I have the umbrella of Kaiut Yoga and all that I experienced last week. I am able to be in the eye of the storm and not feel its full force. The storms are happening, I see that, and I am able to receive them without being carried away by the wind of them. I don't need to panic about the intense conversation with my child's psychologist. I don't need to stress about a disagreement at work. I don't need to be irritated when my husband wears his winter boots in the house, leaving puddles everywhere for me to step in with my socked feet! The storms and my reactions to them are two different things.
I think maybe that is the logic of yoga that Francisco was talking about. We practice yoga with our bodies and reap the benefits in our minds. Quality of body. Quality of life.